Thought for the Week (2)

11 Oct

I Have no idea where I’m going


I have at various times been lost, sometimes in the car, sometimes on foot and occasionally within life. I remember that sinking feeling in the pit my stomach when it becomes apparent that the turning you thought should be there isn’t.

Over the last couple of years we’ve taken Matthew into a few mazes, I don’t like them! There is no logic to them, you just end up aimlessly walking until by more luck than judgement you find your way out at the end in desperate need of a drink. In some mazes there is a halfway point that has stairs which lead up to a bridge which allows you to view the maze from above. This gives you the big picture, it gives you order to your next few turns (before you forget the plan again) and allows you to view the journey up until now, the twists, the turns and the dead ends and how you got there in the end.

This seems to be very much my experience of attempting to follow the leading, guiding and prompting of God through life. It is only after we’ve walked through a situation that we can see Gods hand upon it. Even during times when I have felt a sense of ‘calling’ by God to do something, I haven’t understood it fully until some time afterwards. There is a great quote by Soren Kierkegaard which says “Life must be lived forwards but can only be understood backwards.”


Spend a minute thinking through the ways in which God has been or is involved in a specific situation in your life.


This is a wonderful poem/prayer from Thomas Merton which I have held onto many times in life:

“My Lord God I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.

But I believe that my desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”


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